A PERFECT WORLD……sounds pretty good. A perfect world, everyone is deliriously happy with their relationships. In a perfect world, anyone we love would fall over heels in love with us.
A world, where the whole lot is like a dream…….books for free, chocolates too….
But we all know; it is not a perfect world. The whole thing is really difficult. Especially for the ones that have their love levels completely out of “an unequal relationship”.
Can we sit on a chair, which has a short leg, or can we listen to such duet number, in which one’s voice is on mute? Balance is the natural order of things. And it is quite normal to want it. But most of the times it does not happen. What brings us to the imbalance in love? It does not arise because of money or success or superfluous circumstances. It all comes from the depth of feelings. Sometimes such kind of one sided feelings can be emotionally very strenuous.
Situation is more painful when you want your guy really badly. But unfortunately, he doesn’t feel the same ways for you any more. When he comes, talking about his other girlfriends, it is just soul destroying. The problem increases when the guy knows how you feel about him. He also used to feel the same ways. And then instantly everything changes. Why such changes came? Why he doesn’t know how to behave with you anymore. You don’t know what the hell to do with your feelings. Sometimes you behave like an adult. You propel your pains away and try to move on. But is this the solution???
Most of us are just romantic fools. Falling in love with a person, who does not return your love, worse, he tries your undying devotion to feed his ego. The feeling of gloominess; the willingness to destroy one’s essence in quest of a love unreciprocated, and the helplessness of not being able to win over the object of your affection. I can feel that distress fanatically even today. The frustration of not being able to reach out to the one person, who means more to you than the whole world, is a terrible feeling. It brings out its doubts, and the questions that have no answers, apart from a sheer drop in one’s self esteem. Even anytime when I meet him or think about him, question arises WHY! WHY could you not respond to my feelings? Why you always have excuses to avoid the situations? And whatever he says sometimes, will never make me understand why the one I choose, just to ignore me. But after these eight years of having loved or lost many times over, I must say that his not responding attitude has been a great lesson for me. And I must say that this kind of rejection is a good lesson for my soul. It is rightly said that, “LOVE STARTS AS THE REASON, WINDS UP AS THE EXCUSE”.